From the Drafts: Monday Memories

   Hello, hi. When I write here, I try to make sure it's a fully-fledged, somewhat makes sense piece of writing. But there are a lot of times when I write just to write and then scrap the draft because, who would want to read me rambling about my days or what I ordered at Starbucks? I found this one still saved and thought, what if I just post it? Be wild and step away from my sometimes crippling need for perfection. So here, I am. Putting non-edited thoughts out on the internet for anyone to stumble across. 
Travel back in time to March 18th and find out why Mondays and I don't agree. Enjoy! 
    Apple Music finally put Taylor's new album up for pre-download and it put me in a joyful writing mood! We're just coming back from spring break and it is, of course, a cold, grey Monday. I don't like the sun immediately in the morning because I'm not fully awake yet but generally by 8:30 or 9, I'm like, "Hello? Sun? Please come out and make me feel happy today." Getting ready this morning I pulled down the shower curtain. Not just the hooks coming off-no, no, that's too easy. The whole rod came off. But it's fine. I've already broken the hinge on a cabinet. And caught the fridge handle nearly every time I go into the kitchen And run into my bedroom door. And left a hole in said door. And ruined the carpeting. And whitled this corner of a wall down past the drywall. I will say, my dad was oddly cheerful this morning and that just threw me off so it's possible that getting caught on the shower curtain wasn't necessarily a conscious thought since I felt like I'd entered an alternate dimension. As I'm sitting here thinking back on this, I'm not really that shocked because last week I was also a mess. For some reason, I kept spilling coffee one day. Another day, I had migraines and my glasses broke. Also, I was so tired. I don't know what was going on but I was always falling asleep. In the midst of all of that, I read five books and watched some movies. 
     This week, I really want to focus on my routines and being productive. I think I had such a rough time because I was doing exactly the opposite. I always feel better when I make my bed and clean my face and put away the laundry. Sometimes they can feel taxing which is honestly crazy but that's the only word I can put to it. So now I want to change my thinking. These aren't tasks or a punishment. These are things I deserve. I deserve a clean, calm space that I love. I deserve fresh clothes. I deserve clean teeth and skin. Match your mindset to match your intentions or you're going to get nowhere.
     Life has been a bit chaotic these last couple weeks and now I feel like I can finally get my head on straight and regroup. I am ready for spring and sun. March is a very strange month. It's like half in half out in terms of transitioning from winter to spring. Some days are fabulous and some days are like today where Hades is pouty and doesn't want to give Persephone back so Demeter is equally moody. A little Greek mythology for your Monday!  
     Welcome to Tuesday! I always do this. I write half a post one day and then finish it the next day. But unless you want to hear about migraines and protein deficiency, the rest of Monday would've been yawn inducing. My Tuesdays and Thursdays are my longest days. And even though my brain says otherwise, I really need to have a productive afternoon before PT takes away my will to do anything. I have to write a thesis essay for my religion class and I've written half of an intro paragraph. My second essay is an analysis on effective communications within political messages. I also have to start prepping for fall registration. Lots of stuff I cannot forget. I have a pretty great memory until I have to get things done within a specific time period. 
     I usually get coffee in the afternoon to give me a boost and today I decided to be adventurous and get one of the new spring drinks from Starbucks. I got the lavender oat milk latte with lavender coldfoam. So far, I'm enjoying but I'd probably switch the oat milk for almond. Also the purple of the cold foam is so pretty!
     I'm still a bookworm, in case anyone was worried. My 2023 reading goal was 100 and I got to 102. This year I'm aiming for 150 and right now I'm at 21. I've been adding in more audiobooks and even though I will always take a physical book any day, I appreciate the ease of the audiobook. I started Sherlock Holmes but do not be fooled- I still have plenty waiting on my physical stack. I'm working my way through a Stephen King novel which is the biggest one I'm reading at the moment. I've been into memoirs lately and my current is called The Choice. I started reading it yesterday and I'm surprised how much I was able to get into it. Some memoirs take time to get into it; that's been my experience at least. My biggest challenge right now is wanting to reread books. Every time I look at my bookshelves I want to grab Harry Potter or Pride and Prejudice but I have so many still waiting on my TBR shelf. So I'm using that wish to push through on my current reads. Comfort reads are so hard to veer away from when the other choice is a totally new, unknown book!